Boring is okay

When I signed in to my blog today, I realized how long it's been since I last posted. My life has been pretty routine and, some might say, boring, but that is okay with me. Before I started the Recovery International program, I longed for excitement. But what I really craved were the thrills and chills of temper. Unfortunately, those thrills and chills came with some undesirable side effects in the form of nervous symptoms, including depression, anxiety, panic attacks, irritability. Boy, though, did I have a lot to talk (or should I say complain?) about.

Then there was the imagination on fire. If I was really bored, I'd start imagining all the things that could go wrong with my life or with the world. I have to admit, I still engage my imagination, but when I start to get carried away, I bring myself back to reality by spotting.

Today, instead of looking forward to a lifetime of nervous symptoms or to unrealistic expectations of thrilling excitement, I look forward to the average activities of daily life. This afternoon, I found myself in the kitchen making a salad, a vegetable soup, and baked tofu all at the same time. That was enough excitement for me. And instead of vanity, I felt the realistic pride of taking care of myself and my family by feeding them healthy food that they would enjoy eating.

This reminds me of the spot that "Recovery stands for realism, good common sense, and an unspoiled way of looking at (or viewing) life." I hope everyone has a great week and endorses for all the efforts they make.

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  1. DougOctober 18, 2009 at 7:45 AM

    I'm glad you wrote this post. I needed to be reminded of this lesson and let go of romanto-intellectual leanings. Thank you!

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  2. Linda SaslowDecember 1, 2009 at 10:51 AM

    Thanks for pointing out the joys of average life. Endorse.

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